Rant

You know it just kills me that some people have to go out of their way to make other people's days so freaking terrible. Today at work, I was suppose to come in at 12pm and work till 4pm. Okay, 4 hour shifts don't really bother me because it means I can sleep in and don't have to bake in the morning. Well, I thought that the other girl was going to be there today...turns out she wasn't and no one thought to call me...not that I would have came in anyway but still...I come in with only 4 hours to work which is basically time for me to pan out the bread (which I do every freaking Sunday and Wednesday since the lady who does it those days is on medical leave). But it kills me to see people just stand around with their thumbs up their asses and watch me jump in there and try and get everything done...so in 4 hours of work I bagged and tagged 6 FULL racks of bread, panned out 5 FULL racks, and put things out on the floor that some people were to lazy to do even though the stuff was already made...just needed to be gotten out of the cooler or freezer, dated, and put out. It all just makes me want to scream because I used to not mind working in my department but the bitches in there have just made it so unbearable. Why do you have to make it miserable? We all have to see each other for 4 to 8 hours a day for 4 or 5 days a week...I mean seriously...I know this sounds so selfish but I wish I just didn't have to work...or at least work a less stressful job...I know I want to seriously get out of the "food" industry...

I need to call the lady at the college this week and find out about my financial  aid stuff but I just keep forgetting...>_<

I also need to put in for my vacation. I want to take some days off in January for my birthday and to go see Anna in Tennessee. I swear, I love her so much. She just gets me. I wish that she still lived in Canton but I know it's for the best that she lives in Tennessee with her mom. But there are just some days were I need a good friend to just run to and cry on their shoulders.

 Things are just so stressful in life right now. I think all this stress and drama has just caused me to be such a bitch and I know I take it out on Kyle when I don't mean to. I just say things without thinking sometimes. I really do love him and hopes he knows that he's my world. I know we have our fights at times and stuff but I know we love each other. I just think if we had a little less stress in our lives that everything would be okay. Life if I had a better job, made more money and was happy doing what I did, had less bills, and a better place to live...I think things would be okay.

I want to get out of this rut that I am in my life and move forward...There are so many other things I want to work on...I mean I wish Kyle and I could just have a family...speaking of "making" a family..I got back to to OBGYN on October 5th for my Ultra sound to find out some stuff. I took the Provera and had my period although it wasn't as heavy as mine normally are...I'm hoping maybe I will get some answers...I know I need to lose some weight...maybe that will help things...but I mean the last time I was in there they were talking about be having PCOS and I just don't think that is the case because like almost ALL women who have PCOS have facial hair...and I don't like at all...>_>...

But I think I need to go to bed for now...I have work in the AM @ 7:30 to 3:30pm and I work that tomorrow through Sunday...yay...>_<...These next two weeks are going to be rough on me since the other girl is on vacation...that means I'm going to have to do every freaking thing by myself...yay for selfish bitches who stand around and do nothing except take up space with their ugly faces.